This rambling entry will include an editorial on the current workings of the medical industry, the emotional origins of breast cancer, considerations about your shadow emotion states, and some references for your library about food, household, and cosmetics toxicities.
About Haelan LifeStream Consults
I share appropriate and pertinent pieces of this model with my clients, as an individual or a couple’s needs indicate. We build the knowledge and experiential base upwards on subsequent consults after they have gone back into their lives and become entangled with more inevitable life drama.
The Haelan LifeStream model is organized in such a manner so as to assist with keeping the client and me on track during the usual 2-3 hour consultations. This type of work is not well suited for the shorter style of consult time frames commonly utilized by health practitioners of other skills sets, which are usually uni-dimensional; i.e., skill sets limited to just one aspect of a human life.
Nonetheless, if a client wants to know only about some uni-dimensional aspect, such as the supplements that she needs to deal with her cholesterol issues, or her osteoporosis, or her thyroid malfunction, or her hypertension, or her low energy, etc., then we will just focus on those particular wants and needs. The client tells me what they want, and I assist them in understanding how to achieve their desires.
I may often attempt to open clients to become curious about a more expanded way of considering their needs. They may have arrived at the office with some questions about their cholesterol problems, and so I explain the real state of the art science about LDL particle size and particle number, and how it comes to past that the small LDL particles are more risky, and how they help to create vascular subendothelial atherosclerotic chemistry.
The client may then open to more curiosity. No physician has ever explained so much to them. The most common question I am asked is, “Why didn’t my doctor tell me that?”
My answer is invariably something along the lines of, “Well, you have to try to understand that most of the medical system doesn’t talk about human biochemistry. They are trained to think in terms of pharmaceuticals, and seem to have forgotten that the body has untold healing mechanisms at play, and we really need to assist those mechanisms on a long term basis. Your doctor is just ‘practicing’ mainstream medicine, which means that he/she has to write you a Rx for something. That way, they are perceived as being like their contemporaries, who are in the herd, and they will keep getting referrals from the herd members.”
“Furthermore, they practice a fear based approach, feeling that they might get sued for being anything but conventional, you see? Moreover, the insurance payers have them by the Balls with all of the capitated plans that dictate how much they are going to be paid per visit, and so your doctor has to move through the consult quickly, and on to the next patient in order to get the office overhead covered and accrue any profit in the course of an ordinary day of being an ordinary doctor.”
The client usually already knows all of this, as it turns out. People are not stupid about the challenges which entangle mainstream conventional medicine: 1) the pharmaceutical industry, 2) the malpractice concern, 3) the insurance companies.
Patients know they are being manipulated and taken by the insurance companies, and they realize that the physicians are under unusual bureaucratic constraints.
A recent medical system bureaucratic change is the introduction of Electronic Medical Records, or, EMR. Everything that your doctor does with you has to be electronically recorded into a computer. It is onerous for the already overburdened physician, and you may rightfully be somewhat concerned about the security and humanity of this. Recording your medical information into an EMR interface takes your physician more and more away from real communication with you in a face to face fashion. They might not even look at you during the consult because they are so compressed with one more bureaucratic burden of entering computer data without correcting the misspellings and other errors created by the electronic voice recognition system.
The consumer patient’s problem lies in how we have all been brain washed by the medical industry and Big Pharma to accept such and such a “drug” (comes from the Dutch word “drogge,” which means “herb”) as a quick fix. We are all conditioned to the quick fix, which is not compatible with natural order.
After explaining the ins and outs of the molecule called cholesterol and how it is essential for life, and how it is made, and how it is transported around in the blood stream in these nifty lipoprotein entities, and how these mechanisms can go awry, I then explain that the whole vascular system (the one I used to operate on) is all part and parcel with the Heart. The Heart and its vessels are One. This unified organ is pulsing its message to every cell.
If the clients’ curiosity is open and engaged, I will introduce the concept of Heart resonant frequency, Heart rate variability, and some other associated facts about the Heart’s other functions. I give clients a short article on these subjects, ask them to read it several times. We can conduct a biofeedback look at how their Heart is really performing electromagnetically. I explain that how the Heart vibrates electromagnetically in its frequency scale which is one determinant of how and what the client is attracting into their life.
The Haelan LifeStream model is the only one that I am aware of which comprehensively encompasses the significant issues of body, mind, emotion, and spirit through the unifying awareness and energetic of Heart based consciousness, and the healed Heart.
“The Heart is the hub of all sacred places. Go there and roam in it.” These are the words of Bhagavan Nityananda, a great Siddha being from India who lived in the past century. His words infected me, and there is no cure for this kind of infection. Over the course of my days, I find myself roaming there more and more. It is a gentle daily practice.
This Journal entry will enjoin a review of the various and sundry toxicities in our lives, from the emotional ones to the petro ones. They all start to add up inside of us if we keep hanging around them.
Breast Cancer Origins, and Combining Emotional Evolution into the Solution Process
There is an important story in my life that may help some of you women, and those of you who are associated in some way with these women. This is a story about what I have learned about breast cancer. Breast cancer is a preeminent worldwide concern. It affects everyone. Why is it in our lives?
It is one representative disease state which originates in the unhealed chaos of the Heart Chakra. It is almost that simple, even though it requires biochemical and cellular chaos in order to become manifest. Breast cancer, and all disease states of Heart Chakra organs, have their basis in unresolved (recognized or unrecognized) grief memories. Grief is the demon frequency of an unhealed Heart.
I am not attempting the various biochemical and cellular dynamics which are also present in the breast cancer process. I am attempting here to underscore the importance of Heart frequency disturbance; a subject which will be addressed further in future Journals.
Unresolved grief helps to enable disease states such as: heart diseases, lung diseases, immune system disorders, and esophageal disorders. These are very common problems. There is a lot of unresolved grief. We have been conditioned to trudge around with it.
Breast cancer, like all cancers, like all aberrant chaotic cell growth patterns, carries an emotional basis in addition to a biochemical basis. I understood by 1999, and left surgery in 2001 to begin practicing Haelan LifeStream, a model to help people heal and rearrange their psyche and their biochemistry through the ongoing process of the spiritual healing journey of their lives.
The psychic electromagnetic rearrangement is done through trauma resolution, the development of Heart based consciousness, learning what one’s Heart based primary (passionate) motivators are, and then developing a Vision statement (process) about what one wants to manifest as a future memory. The future memory, like the past memory, informs who we are becoming in the present. Both past and future memories are pre-sent to the Now. The key to this manifestation process is how we are registering our emotions in the body, and how this registration affects the Brain to Heart reflex override, which is the predominant pathway in our civilization.
The universe, or Mind of God, will continue to deliver (present to us) a manifestation that is based on the energetic frequency which the Heart Mind is putting out there. The Heart is doing a lot more than pumping blood around, arguably the least important of its functions.
Emotions are feeling states, frequencies of vibration that we feel in our bodies. We do not feel emotions in our brain, we feel emotions in our bodies. The limbic system of the Brain Mind goes about a high velocity neuroplastic management of incoming emotional feeling states, and collates these feelings through memory pathways in the amygdala and hippocampus, with ongoing information exchange with the prefrontal cortex. In our Brain Mind we register thought processes which amount to our own individualized unique way of thinking about the emotions that have just been triggered and noticed in the body.
Here are some important basic guidelines about your process:
1 ) Disease is the beginning of the healing process.
2) You need the body to heal in.
3) If you can feel it, you can heal it.
Moreover, you will require a refined Ego, an evolved Intellect, to evolve these processes.
So, don’t “give up your Ego” to any person, teacher, teaching, God, institution, path, or whatever/whoever it is that is attempting to manipulate your boundaries and ego. Don’t try to beat up your Ego, deny it, throw it away, or keep on judging and castigating it, as is taught in some religions. Don’t let someone else do your feeling and thinking for you!
The word “religion” is etymologically derived from Latin, re ligio. Ligio is the root word for ligate, and so the word religion really refers to how one re-ligates, or ties back to one’s self, one’s Divinity.
One ties back with one’s Sutras (Sanskrit word origin of “suture”). The Sanskrit word sutra means “to set right.” Your personal sutras are the ones that assist you in maneuvering your Belief systems onto the right track, while giving up the ones that no longer serve you.
It is not necessary to read and study all of the innumerable and beautiful and pertinent and wise Sutras written through the course of human history. You need one Sutra and it is the Sutra of Self Love. All aforementioned sutras boil down to that one sutra. It is a strong suture.
You must pull all weeds in the Garden of Self Love. You might need to consult with an experienced gardener.
And so, you are your own psychic surgeon, and gardener. You do the process yourself. It never jumps on you from the outside of you, although it is helpful to use outside guides and helpers who are in your lives to enable your re-ligio and suturing. As an example, all of the surgeons that I ever knew had mentors. Mentors and teachers are usually necessary to help catalyze our process of discovery of who we are wanting to become.
In the meantime, we refine the mechanism of our Ego into non judgment, forgiveness, unconditional presence, and some other practical advantages, such as clarifying the Emotional Guidance System.
Become aware of your own authentic Identity, your Divinity. Begin to lose interest in your various identity crises, and the ensuing daily dramas. This requires a daily practice. Practice implies that you are OK with so called setbacks. Keep practicing. Practice makes the master.
The only purpose for your daily dramas is to gently remind you of where you are, and that some re-ligio and suturing may be in order. You might have to employ some dissection techniques to get down in there where the pathology is rooted. Think of your life as walking into your own personal OR everyday, replete with all of the other high powered and dysfunctional egos that you will require as grist for your mill. These gristly egos are mirrors of you. You must grind whatever grist is required in this mill. Take your Heart with you.
During your psychic surgeries your Brain Mind thoughts begin to become more clear, and then you can clarify and understand the Emotional Guidance System more efficiently, and then your Brain Mind thoughts become more clear, and so on, loop to loop fashion.
The Brain Mind can then be used to assist the Heart Mind instead of fighting it and overruling it, and damaging it, and damaging the body. The cells of the body are signaled and informed by the Heart Mind. If the Heart Mind is being beat up by the Brain Mind, then the signalling to the cells will be chaotic, and will alter their natural cellular expression. This is the most important cause of all of these so called disease diagnosis states that people get labeled with.
The diagnosis label, to me, is just a descriptive applied to an individual with a symptom complex. Breast cancer in one woman is different from breast cancer in another woman because the underlying Heart based wounding pattern is unique to each woman. There are similarities that I am familiar with, but it is always a unique healing journey, and cannot be cook-booked.
The purpose of the Brain Mind is to serve the Heart Mind by helping to discern a pathway of manifestation of the unified Vision which incorporates the Primary Motivators and the future memory that you want to bring to the present from a future memory “choice point.”
What future memory choice point do you desire?
Thinking about Time
The term “choice point” was first introduced in 1957 by quantum physicist Hugh Everitt III, who conceived of vertical time, in addition to the ordinary horizontal time which we have been conditioned to know as past, present, and future. He derived the quantum theory that the shamans and mystics had previously refered to as “Circular Time” or “Sacred Time.”
In these variants of time, all things past, present, and future are happening at once. The Greek philosophers refered to linear time as chronos, and they refered to circular time as kairos. In the minds of these various knowers, time is holographic. One scintilla of time contains all time.
The ordinary human consciousness will experience difficulty is a knowing of this concept until such consciousness liberates itself.
As Everitt’s protégé, Albert Einstein, put it, “The purpose of Time is so that everything doesn’t happen at once.” That way, we don’t get overwhelmed and traumatically dissociate from overload in our limited and slow moving conscious minds. At our Superconscious mind level we merge with the Mind of God, surveying all of Time. At our core, we are this.
Your practice extends into everyday, bit by bit. It is like the “practice of medicine/surgery.” You just get better and better at your practice until the Symptoms of Inner Peace begin to emerge. You begin to lose interest in judgment. Life becomes more effortless as your frequencies of vibrational offering and vibrational attraction begin to align, and desired manifestations arrive.
Shadow Emotion Dynamics and the Grief Box
There are 17 key emotions in what I refer to as the Emotional Tool Box, or the Emotional Guidance System. Usually people who are carrying a lot of traumatic imprint (physical, emotional, sexual; covert and/or overt forms of these), are carrying around an Emotional Tool Box that is chaotic, disorganized, dysfunctional, and so clobbered up that when they need, say, their utilitarian anger to protect their boundaries, they cannot find the hammer in the tool box because it is buried underneath a pile of other tools.
Under such circumstances, you might ponder what you are going to do with the anger that was just triggered, and you could not find a way to express your hammer. Are you going to hurl it out there at someone, and hurt them, and give yourself more guilt and shame? Or are you going to freeze up with the fear of the unwieldy emotion chaos construct, and just bury it back into your body?
Basically, we don’t get to practice wielding the hammer of utilitarian anger, we just keep practicing the disabling form of anger which I refer to as shadow anger. This has negative consequences in the flesh. The practice of shadow anger invariably means we are also simultaneously practicing shadow apathy, grief, fear, desire, and pride. That is quite a cluster of chaos to be throwing around out there, or burying back into the inner world that it came from.
Shadow apathy, grief, fear, desire, anger, and pride are very different feeling states when contrasted with their utilitarian counterparts. The shadow forms of these 6 key emotions are a reflection of unresolved trauma, which is no more than guilt and shame memoried in the flesh, the psyche. The utilitarian use of these 6 key emotions will protect and heal your life, as they are intended to do. I help guide people into an awareness about how one shifts from the shadow to the utilitarian emotional usage.
Our issues are held inside of our psyche, memoried in our flesh (subconsciousness), and continually inform the Heart electromagnetic field via Brain Mind chaos, which then reinforms the cellular/DNA matrix. I call this mechanic the Grief Box. The Grief Box must be honored by the conscious mind for healing to begin.
The Grief Box is a Treasure Box. Become familiar with it. Rummage around in it, reorganize it, be OK with it. After all, it has become a big part of your story, yes? Maybe have a look at your story, the one you keep telling, the one that enables your self sabotage, and keeps you in your comfort zone.
Take Heart, and open the rusty hinges of that closed Grief Box. The rusty hinges are guilt and shame. The WD 40 that you need to spray on these hinges is called Self Love. Self Love is a practice enhanced by non judgment and forgiveness. Then insert the key of Self Love into the locked keyhole, and turn it. Open the Grief Box, behold its wonders, and as you go inside, let yourself weep with release and new-found joy.
Back in my surgery chapter, I did a lot of breast surgeries, and developed an experience and expertise in breast cancer processes and their solution. I discovered that breast cancer would show up in women who had none of the numerous elucidated risk factors, which include: no pregnancies, first pregnancy after age 30, personal history of breast cancer, family history of breast cancer, use of synthetic hormone replacement therapies (synthetic estrogens and progestins, and yes, oral contraceptives), Ashkenazi Jewish heritage, BRCA I & II genetic factors, hair dyeing, etc. The list of 35, or so, risk factors is long, but these examples come to mind.
A Breast Cancer Story
In May 1988 I met a woman named Juliet Wittman. She had a breast cancer process which I assisted her with. Later on, in her post recovery period she wrote a book about her journey, the beginnning of her healing process. The book is entitled Breast Cancer Journal, A Century of Petals. It was published in 1993 by Fulcrum Press. It became one of the five finalists for Book of the Year, but was disqualified because the author was born in Great Britain. I think it would have won. Juliet thinks the same.
Juliet was an editor for our local newspaper, The Boulder Daily Camera, and so she understands how to write. I recommend this book to anyone facing breast cancer, and to those who face it with them.
Juliet’s process, and her subsequent writings, including her well researched subsequent articles on everyday toxicities, began to inform all levels of my radar and reticular activating system. She helped to catalyze my emergence, even as I assisted her own.
She wrote one article about a book she discovered, Diet for a Poisoned Planet, How to Choose Safe Foods for You and Your Family, by David Steinman, Ballantine Books, 1990. In this book Steinman divides food groups, additives, drinks, etc. into green light, yellow light, or red light foods. The green light foods are “generally regarded as safe (GRAS),” because they do not concentrate environmental toxins as much as the yellow and red light foods. Good guidelines.
For instance, all of you bourbon and scotch drinkers are imbibing significant amounts of urethanes which are highly carcinogenic. Red light drink. Try gin, vodka, tequila, or beer which contain no urethanes. Yellow light drink. You can read all about the chemistry of how this happens in the production of bourbon, scotch, and some wines and ports, in Steinman’s book.
Steinman went on to co-author another book along the same theme with Samuel Epstein. M.D. who is the author of The Politics of Cancer. Their collaborative effort is the book The Safe Shopper’s Bible, A Consumer’s Guide to Nontoxic Household Products, Cosmetics, and Food, published by Macmillan in 1995. It is more wieldy than Steinman’s previous effort, and is an excellent complement to Diet for a Poisoned Planet.
In 2002 another excellent reference text came out, Drop-Dead Gorgeous, by Kim Erickson, Contemporary Books, forward written by Dr. Samuel Epstein. This book is comprehensive and is loaded with useful information about cosmetics for skin, hair, eyes, lips, teeth, and nails.
These 3 books are a good starting point for consideration of the daily toxicity issues which beset us as a result of petro industry spin offs.
The Story of Vaseline
Vaseline, petrolatum, or petroleum jelly has its origins in the early oil well sites in Pennsylvania. The raw material for petroleum jelly was discovered in 1859 in Titusville, Pennsylvania, on some of the country’s first oil rigs. Workers disliked the paraffin-like material forming on rigs because it caused them to malfunction, but they used it on cuts and burns because it was felt that it hastened healing of cuts, burns, scrapes, and was felt to be a good roughneck’s salve.
Robert Chesebrough was a young chemist, whose previous work of distilling fuel from the oil of sperm whales, who found his business rendered obsolete by petroleum. And so he went to Titusville to see what new materials might have commercial potential. Chesebrough took the unrefined black “rod wax”, as the drillers called it, back to his laboratory to refine it and explore its potential uses. Chesebrough discovered that by distilling the lighter, thinner oil products from the rod wax, he could create a light-colored gel. Vaseline is no more than petro hydrocarbons.
It probably should not be used on infant’s diaper rash because of transdermal absorption of the petrochemical.
What I do with Vaseline is to rub it into all of those cotton balls that I collect and recycle from supplement containers. I use gloves and rub it into as many cotton balls as I can hold in my two hands and smear at once.
Then I package these little incendiaries in plastic bags, where they remain until called upon to be ignited with a magnesium striker, a common match stick, or a butane lighter. It lights up in a nice steady strong flame, in rain or shine.
It is excellent tinder for a fire, and should be packaged in all survival, preparedness, and camping packs. There you go. It may save your life. The people on these TV survival shows have never presented this information on Vaseline.
Signing off from Crestone and Beyond.